Well its week four of Spring 2018 and things are so different than this time Fall 2017 semester. Last semester I stared to lose it in week 4, the novelty of the new semester had warn off and I was just tired, in desperate need of a break. The goal is a marathon not a sprint, this time. Though some days feel like a sprint, but that’s okay.
As you all may or may not know I work with the schools disabilities program to navigate my cognitive disabilities. After last semester, we decided to re-do my accommodations in search for what may work better for me. There is no cure to the combo ADHD, Anxiety, and Aspergers. There is not even a common remedy for it. There is only coping remedies that me and Disabilities are constantly working on and trying to see what works for me.
So, to deepen my understanding of the material we are trying audiobooks, for all my textbooks. We are doing a few other things but this is the main change.
I wish I had the words to describe what its like to have the burden of reading taken away and just have the material pouring in to my brain. Now, I am not an auditory learner, but I’m also not a strong reader either, and we needed a way that was strong to get the information in to my brain this is what we came up with. It reduced the burden of trying to read the big words that I don’t recognize but know the meaning of. My vocabulary has always been large… but my reading vocabulary, or words I recognize I very small. Sure I can tell you how diveristy jurisdiction plays a role in supplemental jurisdiction in conversation, but can I can’t read that and decipher what those mashings of letters mean in the fraction of a second before I’m on to the next word? No.
It’s like door had been opened and all this material is just out there waiting to be read, or listened to. All I wanna do is have books read to me and hear what they have to say and not focus on how they are written.
The change in my understanding of the material is ridiculous as well. I am participating more in classes, I’m capable of writing my own briefs (I was relying on internet briefs… ) and I’m following whats happening in classes. I no longer sit there bored and confused. Now I sit there itching to ask the questions I have after reading and eager to talk about the new concepts I have read about.
My goal is .30 better GPA this semester than last semester. That’s a lot I know. But I’m the kid that dreams big. In fact when I saw an elephant in person for the first time my reaction was not “Wow, look how big it is,” my reaction was “Wow, I thought it would be bigger.” If you’re not going to shoot for the very best why play the game? If you’re not going to push yourself to the breaking point to see how far you can really go, then why try at all?
I refuse to live in fear of failure, I live in fear of not trying your gosh darn best and having regrets.
Cheers, Spring 2018. May you be filled with learning opportunities and overcome obstacles.